Worst Day Ever.

Thursday and Friday were pretty good days, despite being work days. I had a sex dream on Friday night with Daryl Dixon from 'The Walking Dead' that kept me jazzed all day.

Today...today was one of the worst days of my life. I got into a pretty major car accident.

I woke up at 10:45 and after rolling $5.50 in coins and helping Dad with the gutters, I went down into Laconia to deposit said coins, and I got $60 out of my savings account and got the $13 I had changed into $1's for the Light Rail/bus fares.

After the bank, I went to the Dollar Store and got some stuff we needed before being forced away quickly because of a needed bathroom detour. While I was in Walgreen's, I was looking at the travel section for some stuff for my trip before I decided I could probably get things for cheaper at Wal-Mart.

In hindsight, I should have bought the things I wanted there.

Not even a minute after I left Walgreen's, I was driving when a motorcyclist {who looked like she didn't have total control over her bike to begin with} crossed into my lane in front of me from the left. I wasn't able to stop in time and hit her full on.

I don't remember the airbags going out but they did and I heard myself screaming as I went off the road, stopping against the side of a building {thankfully I didn't do any damage to the building, in addition to everything else}. My glasses flew off during this, and the first thing I thought was, 'Fuck, they're broken, goddamn it'. Amazingly, they were not when I found them on the floor not even a second later.

There was a lot of dust/powder in the air from the airbags, but I thought it might be smoke because I thought I could smell it, so I wanted to get out as soon as possible. The guy who was with the lady I hit came over, and told me to call 911. I think he asked if I was alright, but I honestly can't remember. I was trying to get out, but the door wouldn't open so I asked if he could open it for me. He did and I tried to call 911 while he attended to his girlfriend, who was lying prostrate on the ground behind my car. I was a wreck at this point and when I saw at least two other people with their phones out, I called my parents and let them know what happened.

A lady came over to me, who had seen what happened, and asked if I was alright. Aside from my chin feeling like it was burning and my nose feeling the same way, I was fine. Thank god I always wear my seat belt when I drive. She must have been a nurse or something because she was giving me a quick check over before the police and the ambulance got there. I asked her if the lady I had hit was okay, and she said she had a broken leg. The lady gave her statement and gave me a hug before she left

The police officer I talked with and who took my statement was really nice, thankfully. Most of the rest of what happened is kind of a blur, but I gave my statement and told them what happened, and did the same thing again when my parents got there. I kept being asked if I wanted to be checked out by the EMTs and before my parents and I left, I said alright. I was asked if anything hurt and I said no and that since I looked fine, and didn't have a concussion, they said I should go to the hospital if I felt like I needed to later on.

When we got home, I called AllState and filed my claim, and then Mom, Dad and I drove down to the airport to get my rental car {since all the Enterprises around us were closed by this point}. The insurance company is paying up to $30 a day for my rental, and since it's $22, that's good. I had to pay an extra $25 a day because I'm under 25, though, which blows. I need to call them and see if I can get that waived because it's bullshit.

I was able to talk to Bekah this evening after I got home from the airport and had a shower, and while I was on the phone with her, a bar of soap fell and hit the side of the tub, which made me jump about a mile. So, that's fun. I talked with John for a bit after I got off the phone with her. I posted about my day on Facebook after texting a bunch of people, and his brother commented on my post. Apparently when John got up, Dave said, "You might wanna call Megan." He asked why and Dave said, "I'll let her tell you what happened."

He said he feels like a bad boyfriend for not being able to comfort me properly right now, and said this on Facebook: "Very glad there were no serious injuries, as for the car, it's just a vehicle. It can be replaced, you, not so easily. I'll definitely have to spoil you rotten a bit when you get here to make up for such a dismal day." He also asked if I wanted some comfort food and I said I wouldn't say no to Milky Way Caramel, Reese's Cups, Peanut M&M's or Chinese food.

In short, though, my car is totaled, and I will need a new one ASAP. I'm thinking about leasing a car instead of buying one, at least right now, because of my "up in the air" residence situation once I move away from New Hampshire. I'll have to weigh the pros and cons and see how much money I get from the insurance company.

I work tomorrow, and I really don't want to, but I can't just sit around and wallow in what happened. I hope I'm put in a slow store tomorrow and I would not say no to being able to go home early.

There will never be a dawn that breaks the spell surrounding us

Work on Sunday and Monday were pretty much the same. The only thing of not e was the fact that I stayed for almost the entirety of my shifts on both days. Hours picking up? I hope so!

Sunday I had an episode. And by that I mean I cried because I didn't know there was going to be a 'Walking Dead' marathon until the new episode aired at nine. I ended up missing episode 7, for the second time, and was so upset and frustrated that I wouldn't be able to watch it or the newer ones until DVD, ensuring I was behind everyone once again.

Thankfully, I was saved by Kara, who found me a site to download episode 7 on, so I was able to watch that and then watch the newest one at 11.

During work on Monday, I got some super cute texts from John:

":* My Valentine"

"You deserve to be covered with kisses :* :* :*"

:333333333333333333333

I should say that the first of those texts was completely out of the blue. They made me blush like mad.

He calls me his "kitten" :3

I haven't done much this Valentine's Day, though I did hit the gym and watch one of my Netflix films; 'Ravenous'. I...I don't...I don't even. I didn't like it, that's all I can say.

I just made chicken and pasta for dinner and oh my God it's delicious. I'm not even bragging, I did a fucking phenomenal job.

Work again tomorrow, 12-8 this time.

Pale blue eyes, strawberry hair

The modem at home is still broken. A tech is supposed to come out on Wednesday around 1 to fix it. Since I have 3 days off in a row again, I'll get to be there to answer questions/help them should they need it. Which is definitely good because if it was my Dad or my Mom, they would have no idea what to do and would most likely call me anyway.

Work is still the same; slow and boring and dull. I worked yesterday and am on my lunch break of my 12-8:30 shift today.

No Skype date with John, since no internet, but we were able to have a very fruitful phone conversation last night. I also talked with Emmy some before I read more of The Girl Who Played With Fire and went to bed. I'm almost done with that book...and should be able to get The Girl Who Kicked The Hornet's Nest sometime soon in paperback.

I seem to have hurt my wrist by bending backwards on my bed, just to see if I still could. Ice and Advil will be used liberally once I get home. It figures; once I have finally almost gotten rid of my ringworm, I hope, something else happens.

I'm glad I'm off tomorrow. Dad's taking us to lunch at a BBQ place in Boscawen, and the rest of the afternoon will consist of gym {which will depend on my wrist}, reading and watching the two discs of 'Boardwalk Empire' I'm getting in today. I should also be getting in the first season of 'The IT Crowd' that I ordered for John's Christmas gift. I also ordered him, and me, a coaster that has 'Keep Calm and Put the Kettle On' on it.

I'm always home

Yesterday was the last of my 3 days off in a row. I didn't go to the gym, mostly to give my body a break from it, and had a leisurely day like I usually do. I deposited the rolled coins in my savings account and made a quick stop at CVS to get more mouthwash, some Gummy Bears and some tortilla chips.

Once home, I made dinner for Mom and myself; General Tso's chicken, white rice and sweet potato waffle fries, while we watched 'The Ghost and the Darkness' and 'The Tempest'. Of the two, I liked the former the best, but seeing Chris Cooper's acting in 'The Tempest' was a treat, since he's never done Shakespeare before. He really should do more of it, since he was excellent.

I started The Girl Who Played With Fire last night, and like The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, it's highly engrossing {or so I thought}.

Aside from how leisurely my days have been, I've felt a sense of melancholy creeping up at random times. A lot of it was from today, where I was on the verge of crying twice. Once was when Mom was asking me stuff about John and that ultimately brought up the fact that he's planning on moving back to England at some point. I told my Mom point blank today that if he asked me, I would go with him. I said it like that, and added, "Just to let you know now."

Before we started watching the movies, she pointed out that he would have to get established in the country, since he's never worked there {having moved to the US when he was all of 7 or 8}, and would have to find a place to live, and possibly someone to sponsor him. And that if I wanted to follow suit, I would have to get a visa, find a sponsor myself and work and a place to live before I moved...like most of this didn't cross my mind already. I love my Mom, but I don't know why she thinks I don't think of things on my own. I guess it's hard for her to see me growing up and when she looks at me she still sees me as a young kid, but...yeah.

That stuff and the fact that I think there's something wrong with one of my cats almost made me cry today. I had my cat Seraph on my lap while watching the movies- which sadly doesn't happen a lot because I usually have my computer there or I don't want her on me because she sheds a lot...come to think of it, that's why I rarely have any of the cats on me...I sound like a horrible pet owner...

ANYWAY. I had Seraph on my lap and my hand brushed against something on her left leg at the crook of her...for lack of a better word "elbow". I looked at it...and I have no fucking idea what it might be. Mine and my Mom's and later my Dad's attempts to figure out what it might be resulted in her squalling and yowling in what sounded like pain, and so that got me upset.

I thought it might be a tick that had just embedded itself in her leg, because what I could feel of it feels kind of hard and insect shell-like...but I think a tick would've fallen off by now, since we haven't had any in the house since the summer.

Either way, I should call the vet to see her examined.

Oh! And did I mention that my car is making a kind of squealing noise? I think the serpentine belt is loose again. FML, man.

Work was alright today, aside from a soda bottle exploding during the first ten minutes of my shift. I talked to Liz on the drive home and made more headway in The Girl Who Played With Fire.

It's all because of me

-Starting Weight: 191.5
-Current Weight: 183.5
-Goal Weight: 172
--+--

Sunday I worked, Monday I worked. Sunday was an 11-7 day but I ended up staying until almost 8 because of a coworker who left early because he was "sick". And I put it like that only because he is always asking Kaeli to leave early around 4 or 5 when his shift isn't over until 8...because he's bored.

Yeah? You're bored? Unlike the rest of us who enjoy standing around empty stores, twiddling our thumbs as nothing happens. But, whatever. When coworkers aren't there, it means more hours for the rest of us. And as such, staying later on Sunday meant I could leave earlier on Monday.

Ben and I watched episode 4 of season 2 of 'Downton' together on Monday night, and he also got me to watch the first episode of the show 'Sherlock'. I kind of don't see what the big deal is with this show. Maybe it's just me. I did laugh at the line, "I pickpocket him when he's annoying", but otherwise, nope.

Tuesday was a day off. I managed to be really productive in the morning before Mom and Dad got home from Mom's job interview and put the clean dishes away, shoveled a bit and wiped the sink out. After watching two episodes of 'All in the Family', I spent a majority of my day reading my book about the Tudors; The Tudors: The Complete Story of England's Most Notorious Dynasty by G.J. Meyer. I started it in March but am just now getting around to finishing it, thanks to reading 50 other books last year.

I worked out yesterday afternoon, and it was highly successful. I managed to go 4.7 miles on the elliptical machine in 45 minutes. Not a bad bit of business, I must say, and it left me pretty pleased with myself. I also wound up staying for an hour and 15 minutes lifting weights.

I talked with Bekah on the way home, had a nice dinner and read some more before I watched the documentary 'Miss Representation' on youtube. Before I went to bed, John and I had a Skype date, which is always lovely.

I don't need another map of your head

-Starting Weight: 191.5
-Current Weight: 187.5
-Goal Weight: 172

--+--

On Tuesday, I managed to go to the gym and was on the elliptical for 51 minutes altogether. I did some weight lifting for a few more minutes and then went home because it was beginning to get late. I stopped by CVS on the way home and bought a stronger anti-fungal treatment for my ringworm; Tinactin- or at least its generic version- along with some more band aids and anti-fungal soap. I've been using them every day since Tuesday and already it looks as if the thing is gone...which is a vast improvement over how it looked even a few days ago.

I stayed up late texting John and as such as tired when I got up in the morning. I worked Wednesday and Thursday and everything was pretty much the same as it has been. My late evenings on both nights, however, were punctuated by late night phone calls from John, both of which were amazing and hot.

During all of this, I've read more of John Adams, and yesterday, I finished the first season of 'Downton Abbey'. Bekah's package of food goodies and the book The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan came in the mail as well. I have read 3 books now this year, and so far, only one has not been on my reading list.

I was going to go out to the gym, but the temperature around 5:15 made me change my mind, though I did walk up and back to the mail box and did some backwards pedaling on the crappy exercise bike in the kitchen. I also have eaten very well today, so that's something in my favor; eggs and toast with jam and tea and OJ for breakfast, small piece of steak with pasta and edamame for dinner and some of the goodies in the box Bekah sent.

I talked with Bekah while doing the dishes and laundry before I chatted with John via Skype for a good long while. 35 more days until I can see him in person. I'm looking forward to it much more now...especially since we established that my fetish for a hot teacher is alive and well. What? XD

-Quote of the Day: "breathtaking, adj.

Those mornings when we kiss and surrender for an hour before we say a single word."- The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan

If we die, we die together

Hmm, well, it seems my promise to once again not neglect this has been broken. Life gets in the way, okay? I can't just jump through hoops for people and post all the time. Even my LJ and my food blog have been suffering thanks to the schedule I'm on.

My weekdays are thus:
-7:15 AM: Wake up, get dressed, grab something quick for breakfast
-8:15 AM: In Starbucks in Greenbelt for my additional, or second, breakfast of a tall hot chocolate and a blueberry scone/Mallorca sweet bread/plain bagel with cream cheese, while I read a large book to wile away the minutes
-9:15 AM: Clock into work
-9:30-9:55 AM: Unload the stock truck
-10:30/10:45-11:45 AM: Put out stock onto sales floor
-11:50-12:30/1:30 PM: Unload boxes
-1:30-1:45/1:45-2 PM: 15 minute break
-1:45/2PM: Back to work hanging clothes
-2:45: Put out clothes onto sales floor
-3 PM: So long, suckers!

I don't work my second job until Fridays, and that's always 4-9. Some days, I drop Mom off at her second job and then go to the gym at my school for an hour {sometimes a little less} and roleplay/watch movies. I also do this on days when she's not at her second job.

Weekends are strictly me time, where I can sleep in and stay in my pajamas all day.

I am thankful for the 3 day weekend I have this time around. Thanks to Memorial Day on Monday, we get no stock truck, so the stock associates don't have to come in. Bliss!

In Other News:
*I have yet another celebrity crush to add to the growing multitude of them. Michael Sheen is a god among men, and I try as hard as I can to block out that he was in the Underworld films {though I loved the 1st one for awhile} and the new Twilight movies {JUST...NO}, despite the fact he looks fine as fuck as a werewolf.

Awww yeah.

Normally, he's a talented actor in films such as 'The Music Within' {he plays a man with cerebral palsy}, 'The Queen', 'Frost/Nixon', 'The Damned United' and has guest starred as one of my favorite TV characters ever on '30 Rock'. And through it all, he has retained that charming geekiness.

MMMF

Also, I firmly believe he should be the person playing Bilbo Baggins in 'The Hobbit'. Who can I talk to to make this happen?

*I'm currently trying to save up for a trip to Florida in October for the Food and Wine Festival at Epcot. It'll be my 3rd time going to Disney World, and I predict this one will be even better than the last. Chief among those reasons is because it's much less expensive than the last trip, we're flying this time, and because I can drink if I like {I will be}.
There was talk about a tequila tasting, in between all the wine and food tastings, so that should be interesting.

*Muse's new song 'Neutron Star Collision' is on the 'Eclipse' soundtrack {3rd in the 'Twilight' series}, and even though the song is legit cheesy and sappy, and I get blinded by rage if I have to recall what it's associated with, I love this song.



And speaking of Muse, I'm seeing them for the 5th time in October, after the Florida trip, in Virginia with my very good friend Davey, who is moving here from Kentucky on June 3rd. We plan to meet them after the show, and I hope we are successful in this venture.