I'm always home

Yesterday was the last of my 3 days off in a row. I didn't go to the gym, mostly to give my body a break from it, and had a leisurely day like I usually do. I deposited the rolled coins in my savings account and made a quick stop at CVS to get more mouthwash, some Gummy Bears and some tortilla chips.

Once home, I made dinner for Mom and myself; General Tso's chicken, white rice and sweet potato waffle fries, while we watched 'The Ghost and the Darkness' and 'The Tempest'. Of the two, I liked the former the best, but seeing Chris Cooper's acting in 'The Tempest' was a treat, since he's never done Shakespeare before. He really should do more of it, since he was excellent.

I started The Girl Who Played With Fire last night, and like The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, it's highly engrossing {or so I thought}.

Aside from how leisurely my days have been, I've felt a sense of melancholy creeping up at random times. A lot of it was from today, where I was on the verge of crying twice. Once was when Mom was asking me stuff about John and that ultimately brought up the fact that he's planning on moving back to England at some point. I told my Mom point blank today that if he asked me, I would go with him. I said it like that, and added, "Just to let you know now."

Before we started watching the movies, she pointed out that he would have to get established in the country, since he's never worked there {having moved to the US when he was all of 7 or 8}, and would have to find a place to live, and possibly someone to sponsor him. And that if I wanted to follow suit, I would have to get a visa, find a sponsor myself and work and a place to live before I moved...like most of this didn't cross my mind already. I love my Mom, but I don't know why she thinks I don't think of things on my own. I guess it's hard for her to see me growing up and when she looks at me she still sees me as a young kid, but...yeah.

That stuff and the fact that I think there's something wrong with one of my cats almost made me cry today. I had my cat Seraph on my lap while watching the movies- which sadly doesn't happen a lot because I usually have my computer there or I don't want her on me because she sheds a lot...come to think of it, that's why I rarely have any of the cats on me...I sound like a horrible pet owner...

ANYWAY. I had Seraph on my lap and my hand brushed against something on her left leg at the crook of her...for lack of a better word "elbow". I looked at it...and I have no fucking idea what it might be. Mine and my Mom's and later my Dad's attempts to figure out what it might be resulted in her squalling and yowling in what sounded like pain, and so that got me upset.

I thought it might be a tick that had just embedded itself in her leg, because what I could feel of it feels kind of hard and insect shell-like...but I think a tick would've fallen off by now, since we haven't had any in the house since the summer.

Either way, I should call the vet to see her examined.

Oh! And did I mention that my car is making a kind of squealing noise? I think the serpentine belt is loose again. FML, man.

Work was alright today, aside from a soda bottle exploding during the first ten minutes of my shift. I talked to Liz on the drive home and made more headway in The Girl Who Played With Fire.

It's all because of me

-Starting Weight: 191.5
-Current Weight: 183.5
-Goal Weight: 172
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Sunday I worked, Monday I worked. Sunday was an 11-7 day but I ended up staying until almost 8 because of a coworker who left early because he was "sick". And I put it like that only because he is always asking Kaeli to leave early around 4 or 5 when his shift isn't over until 8...because he's bored.

Yeah? You're bored? Unlike the rest of us who enjoy standing around empty stores, twiddling our thumbs as nothing happens. But, whatever. When coworkers aren't there, it means more hours for the rest of us. And as such, staying later on Sunday meant I could leave earlier on Monday.

Ben and I watched episode 4 of season 2 of 'Downton' together on Monday night, and he also got me to watch the first episode of the show 'Sherlock'. I kind of don't see what the big deal is with this show. Maybe it's just me. I did laugh at the line, "I pickpocket him when he's annoying", but otherwise, nope.

Tuesday was a day off. I managed to be really productive in the morning before Mom and Dad got home from Mom's job interview and put the clean dishes away, shoveled a bit and wiped the sink out. After watching two episodes of 'All in the Family', I spent a majority of my day reading my book about the Tudors; The Tudors: The Complete Story of England's Most Notorious Dynasty by G.J. Meyer. I started it in March but am just now getting around to finishing it, thanks to reading 50 other books last year.

I worked out yesterday afternoon, and it was highly successful. I managed to go 4.7 miles on the elliptical machine in 45 minutes. Not a bad bit of business, I must say, and it left me pretty pleased with myself. I also wound up staying for an hour and 15 minutes lifting weights.

I talked with Bekah on the way home, had a nice dinner and read some more before I watched the documentary 'Miss Representation' on youtube. Before I went to bed, John and I had a Skype date, which is always lovely.

‘Unpopular Opinion’ survey

1. A selection of television programs you do not care for.
How I Met Your Mother, Glee, True Blood, Weeds, The Office, House, Dollhouse, Lost

2. A selection of musical artists you do not care for.
Tom Waits, Justin Bieber, Beyonce, The Foo Fighters, The Killers, My Chemical Romance

3. A selection of celebrities you couldn’t care less about.
Jude Law, Quentin Tarantino, Robert Pattinson, Charlie Sheen, Brad Pitt, Angelina Jolie, any and all of the Kardashians and Kendra Wilkinson

4. A hobby you “don’t get”.
Collecting shot glasses

5. A habit you find disgusting.
Smoking

6. Something in school you really liked doing that everyone else bitched over.
Anything involving history

7. Your favorite household chore.
Vacuuming, laundry

8. Popular video games that make you go “meh”.
Any and all of the Zelda games, Super Mario Brothers, Mario Kart

9. PC or MAC?
PC

10. A sport you don’t like, for whatever reason.
Football

11. A sport you really like, for whatever reason.
Soccer

12. Television programs you love but have gotten shit for liking.
Supernatural

13. Musical artists you love but have gotten shit for liking.
Ke$ha, Three Days Grace, Stabbing Westward, Seether, Fall Out Boy, Fiona Apple, Papa Roach, Muse

14. A hobby you have/find interesting that other people bother you over/make fun of.
I can’t actually think of anything

15. A habit you have that other people bug you over.
Correcting people, not wanting to see earlier versions of things {like the older Star Trek films and movies} because I like the newer ones

16. Something in school you hating doing and it felt like everyone else loved.
Those deductive reasoning math challenges.

17. The household chore that makes you want to shoot your own face off.
Cleaning the cat box

18. A selection of video games that you enjoy that perhaps you really shouldn’t.
Harvest Moon: Save the Homeland {because of how old it is, but I find it super cute}

19. A celebrity crush that maybe even you don’t understand.
Jackie Earle Haley

20. Free rant on whatever grinds your gears at the moment.
-I hate when people walk and don’t pick up their fucking feet and just let their shoes scrape across the floor
-I hate when people chew with their mouths open
-I hate when people don’t wipe off the toilet seat {Ladies; STOP hovering! Just put toilet paper on the toilet seat! It seriously takes like three seconds}

Are you a good swimmer?

I am, yes. I've been told I'm part fish.

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2 pounds lost

-Starting Weight: 191.5
-Current Weight: 185.5
-Goal Weight: 172

I have cumulatively lost 10 pounds since December. I feel really good about this.

What's the last cartoon you watched?

Film: Aladdin
Series: Avatar: The Last Airbender

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I don't need another map of your head

-Starting Weight: 191.5
-Current Weight: 187.5
-Goal Weight: 172

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On Tuesday, I managed to go to the gym and was on the elliptical for 51 minutes altogether. I did some weight lifting for a few more minutes and then went home because it was beginning to get late. I stopped by CVS on the way home and bought a stronger anti-fungal treatment for my ringworm; Tinactin- or at least its generic version- along with some more band aids and anti-fungal soap. I've been using them every day since Tuesday and already it looks as if the thing is gone...which is a vast improvement over how it looked even a few days ago.

I stayed up late texting John and as such as tired when I got up in the morning. I worked Wednesday and Thursday and everything was pretty much the same as it has been. My late evenings on both nights, however, were punctuated by late night phone calls from John, both of which were amazing and hot.

During all of this, I've read more of John Adams, and yesterday, I finished the first season of 'Downton Abbey'. Bekah's package of food goodies and the book The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan came in the mail as well. I have read 3 books now this year, and so far, only one has not been on my reading list.

I was going to go out to the gym, but the temperature around 5:15 made me change my mind, though I did walk up and back to the mail box and did some backwards pedaling on the crappy exercise bike in the kitchen. I also have eaten very well today, so that's something in my favor; eggs and toast with jam and tea and OJ for breakfast, small piece of steak with pasta and edamame for dinner and some of the goodies in the box Bekah sent.

I talked with Bekah while doing the dishes and laundry before I chatted with John via Skype for a good long while. 35 more days until I can see him in person. I'm looking forward to it much more now...especially since we established that my fetish for a hot teacher is alive and well. What? XD

-Quote of the Day: "breathtaking, adj.

Those mornings when we kiss and surrender for an hour before we say a single word."- The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan

If you had a million dollars, what's the first thing you'd buy?

I would pay off my debts before buying anything, but I would probably buy a house and a car first thing.

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What was your favorite book as a child?

Can't You Sleep Little Bear? was one I had read to me all the time before I went to sleep

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Last 76 Films Watched in 2011

101} Rebecca {June 4, 2011}
102} Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story {rewatch}{June 4, 2011}
103} Leon: The Professional {June 7, 2011}
104} Unstoppable {June 11, 2011}
105} Machete {June 11, 2011}
106} Super 8 {with Justin} {June 13, 2011}
107} Seven Samurai {June 20, 2011}
108} Yojimbo {with Ben} {June 21, 2011}
109} Killshot {June 21, 2011}
110} Eastern Promises {rewatch} {June 21, 2011}
111} Neo Ned {June 22, 2011}
112} Misery {rewatch} {June 23, 2011}
113} Rabbit Hole {June 27, 2011}}
114} Midnight Movies: From the Margin to the Mainstream {June 28, 2011}
115} Hausu {June 28, 2011}
116} The History Boys {rewatch} {July 5, 2011}
117} Brian Regan: The Epitome of Hyperbole {rewatch} {July 9, 2011}
118} Centurion {July 10, 2011}
119} Human Centipede: The First Sequence {July 11, 2011}
120} Rashomon {July 16, 2011}
121} Horrible Bosses {July 16, 2011}
122} The Great Escape {July 16, 2011}
123} The Hidden {July 19, 2011}
124} Mamma Mia! {July 22, 2011}
125} Captain America: The First Avenger {with Justin} {July 22, 2011}
126} Threads {July 29, 2011}
127} Hall Pass {July 29, 2011}
128} Wyatt Earp {with Kara} {August 12, 2011}
129} Fanboys {rewatch, with Kara} {August 12, 2011} {x2}
130} Aliens {rewatch} {August 18, 2011}
131} The Help {August 26, 2011}
132} The Losers {September 4, 2011}
133} The Children's Hour {September 4, 2011}
134} The Fugitive {rewatch} {September 4, 2011}
135} Inglourious Basterds {rewatch} {September 4, 2011}
136} The Rocker {rewatch} {September 5, 2011}
137} Watchmen {rewatch} {September 5, 2011}
138} Wall-E {rewatch} {September 6, 2011}
139} The Music Within {rewatch} {September 7, 2011}
140} Flightplan {rewatch} {September 10, 2011}
141} Fish Tank {September 19, 2011}
142} The Road to El Dorado {rewatch} {September 21, 2011}
143} The Lion King {rewatch} {September 22, 2011}
144} Grave of the Fireflies {September 26, 2011}
145} Changeling {rewatch} {September 26, 2011}
146} Milk {rewatch} {September 27, 2011}
147} Frost/Nixon {rewatch} {September 28, 2011}
148} Contagion {with Justin} {September 29, 2011}
149} Bridesmaids {October 2, 2011}
150} Anchorman {rewatch} {October 6, 2011}
151} The Last King of Scotland {rewatch} {October 10, 2011}
152} 12 Rounds {October 13, 2011}
153} Day of the Dead {October 14, 2011}
154} The Breakfast Club {rewatch} {October 22, 2011}
155} The Frighteners {rewatch} {November 1, 2011}
156} Jarhead {rewatch} {November 5, 2011}
157} V For Vendetta {rewatch} {November 5, 2011}
158} Hot Rod {rewatch} {November 22, 2011}
159} Burn After Reading {November 22, 2011}
160} Reservoir Dogs {rewatch, with Kara} {November 25, 2011}
161} Just Friends {rewatch, with Kara} {November 25, 2011}
162} The Princess Bride {rewatch} {November 29, 2011}
163} Immortals {with John} {December 1, 2011}
164} Love Actually {rewatch} {December 3, 2011}
165} The Hangover {rewatch} {December 3, 2011}
166} Tangled {December 6, 2011}
167} Nobody Knows {December 18, 2011}
168} Fright Night (2011) {December 18, 2011} {x2}
169} Sherlock Holmes {rewatch} {December 18, 2011}
170} Return of the Jedi {rewatch} {December 18, 2011}
171} The Reader {rewatch} {December 18, 2011}
172} Finding Nemo {rewatch} {December 20, 2011}
173} The Kite Runner {rewatch} {December 23, 2011}
174} A Christmas Story {rewatch} {December 24, 2011}
175} The Devil's Double {December 30, 2011}
176} Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring {rewatch} {December 31, 2011}