I didn't before, but I have come to like it
Friday, February 3, 2012
I'm just rattling through life
I've got a headspace now of not wanting to do anything but read, text,
sit in my room and listen to music on Spotify while eating Gummy Bears
and drinking Dr. Pepper Cherry. Spotify's been giving me some gems the
last few days; a lot of bands I've never heard before now{or either
can't remember if I have}, like Frightened Rabbit {I'm 99% certain I've
heard them before through Ben}, Surfer Blood, Local Natives, The Temper
Trap and The xx, among others.
At the very least, I want to do this while taking a train trip across the country, or if not across America, then across Europe and back. Do you ever listen to music that evokes images like that in your head? Like you can see landscapes and scenery passing through your head while the music plays? That's what I've got now while listening to this album.
The title of this entry is rather appropriate, I think. At times, I do feel like I'm just rattling through life. On the whole, aside from work, I do nothing.
I texted John before work and after work, as per usual. 23 days and he'll be here and I can kiss him and touch him and love him. It seems like a lot less waiting than the last time around, and I can't figure out why.
At the very least, I want to do this while taking a train trip across the country, or if not across America, then across Europe and back. Do you ever listen to music that evokes images like that in your head? Like you can see landscapes and scenery passing through your head while the music plays? That's what I've got now while listening to this album.
The title of this entry is rather appropriate, I think. At times, I do feel like I'm just rattling through life. On the whole, aside from work, I do nothing.
I texted John before work and after work, as per usual. 23 days and he'll be here and I can kiss him and touch him and love him. It seems like a lot less waiting than the last time around, and I can't figure out why.
I'm always home
Yesterday was the last of my 3 days off in a row. I didn't go to the gym,
mostly to give my body a break from it, and had a leisurely day like I
usually do. I deposited the rolled coins in my savings account and made a
quick stop at CVS to get more mouthwash, some Gummy Bears and some
tortilla chips.
Once home, I made dinner for Mom and myself; General Tso's chicken, white rice and sweet potato waffle fries, while we watched 'The Ghost and the Darkness' and 'The Tempest'. Of the two, I liked the former the best, but seeing Chris Cooper's acting in 'The Tempest' was a treat, since he's never done Shakespeare before. He really should do more of it, since he was excellent.
I started The Girl Who Played With Fire last night, and like The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, it's highly engrossing {or so I thought}.
Aside from how leisurely my days have been, I've felt a sense of melancholy creeping up at random times. A lot of it was from today, where I was on the verge of crying twice. Once was when Mom was asking me stuff about John and that ultimately brought up the fact that he's planning on moving back to England at some point. I told my Mom point blank today that if he asked me, I would go with him. I said it like that, and added, "Just to let you know now."
Before we started watching the movies, she pointed out that he would have to get established in the country, since he's never worked there {having moved to the US when he was all of 7 or 8}, and would have to find a place to live, and possibly someone to sponsor him. And that if I wanted to follow suit, I would have to get a visa, find a sponsor myself and work and a place to live before I moved...like most of this didn't cross my mind already. I love my Mom, but I don't know why she thinks I don't think of things on my own. I guess it's hard for her to see me growing up and when she looks at me she still sees me as a young kid, but...yeah.
That stuff and the fact that I think there's something wrong with one of my cats almost made me cry today. I had my cat Seraph on my lap while watching the movies- which sadly doesn't happen a lot because I usually have my computer there or I don't want her on me because she sheds a lot...come to think of it, that's why I rarely have any of the cats on me...I sound like a horrible pet owner...
ANYWAY. I had Seraph on my lap and my hand brushed against something on her left leg at the crook of her...for lack of a better word "elbow". I looked at it...and I have no fucking idea what it might be. Mine and my Mom's and later my Dad's attempts to figure out what it might be resulted in her squalling and yowling in what sounded like pain, and so that got me upset.
I thought it might be a tick that had just embedded itself in her leg, because what I could feel of it feels kind of hard and insect shell-like...but I think a tick would've fallen off by now, since we haven't had any in the house since the summer.
Either way, I should call the vet to see her examined.
Oh! And did I mention that my car is making a kind of squealing noise? I think the serpentine belt is loose again. FML, man.
Work was alright today, aside from a soda bottle exploding during the first ten minutes of my shift. I talked to Liz on the drive home and made more headway in The Girl Who Played With Fire.
Once home, I made dinner for Mom and myself; General Tso's chicken, white rice and sweet potato waffle fries, while we watched 'The Ghost and the Darkness' and 'The Tempest'. Of the two, I liked the former the best, but seeing Chris Cooper's acting in 'The Tempest' was a treat, since he's never done Shakespeare before. He really should do more of it, since he was excellent.
I started The Girl Who Played With Fire last night, and like The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, it's highly engrossing {or so I thought}.
Aside from how leisurely my days have been, I've felt a sense of melancholy creeping up at random times. A lot of it was from today, where I was on the verge of crying twice. Once was when Mom was asking me stuff about John and that ultimately brought up the fact that he's planning on moving back to England at some point. I told my Mom point blank today that if he asked me, I would go with him. I said it like that, and added, "Just to let you know now."
Before we started watching the movies, she pointed out that he would have to get established in the country, since he's never worked there {having moved to the US when he was all of 7 or 8}, and would have to find a place to live, and possibly someone to sponsor him. And that if I wanted to follow suit, I would have to get a visa, find a sponsor myself and work and a place to live before I moved...like most of this didn't cross my mind already. I love my Mom, but I don't know why she thinks I don't think of things on my own. I guess it's hard for her to see me growing up and when she looks at me she still sees me as a young kid, but...yeah.
That stuff and the fact that I think there's something wrong with one of my cats almost made me cry today. I had my cat Seraph on my lap while watching the movies- which sadly doesn't happen a lot because I usually have my computer there or I don't want her on me because she sheds a lot...come to think of it, that's why I rarely have any of the cats on me...I sound like a horrible pet owner...
ANYWAY. I had Seraph on my lap and my hand brushed against something on her left leg at the crook of her...for lack of a better word "elbow". I looked at it...and I have no fucking idea what it might be. Mine and my Mom's and later my Dad's attempts to figure out what it might be resulted in her squalling and yowling in what sounded like pain, and so that got me upset.
I thought it might be a tick that had just embedded itself in her leg, because what I could feel of it feels kind of hard and insect shell-like...but I think a tick would've fallen off by now, since we haven't had any in the house since the summer.
Either way, I should call the vet to see her examined.
Oh! And did I mention that my car is making a kind of squealing noise? I think the serpentine belt is loose again. FML, man.
Work was alright today, aside from a soda bottle exploding during the first ten minutes of my shift. I talked to Liz on the drive home and made more headway in The Girl Who Played With Fire.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
It's all because of me
-Starting Weight: 191.5
-Current Weight: 183.5
-Goal Weight: 172
--+--
Sunday I worked, Monday I worked. Sunday was an 11-7 day but I ended up staying until almost 8 because of a coworker who left early because he was "sick". And I put it like that only because he is always asking Kaeli to leave early around 4 or 5 when his shift isn't over until 8...because he's bored.
Yeah? You're bored? Unlike the rest of us who enjoy standing around empty stores, twiddling our thumbs as nothing happens. But, whatever. When coworkers aren't there, it means more hours for the rest of us. And as such, staying later on Sunday meant I could leave earlier on Monday.
Ben and I watched episode 4 of season 2 of 'Downton' together on Monday night, and he also got me to watch the first episode of the show 'Sherlock'. I kind of don't see what the big deal is with this show. Maybe it's just me. I did laugh at the line, "I pickpocket him when he's annoying", but otherwise, nope.
Tuesday was a day off. I managed to be really productive in the morning before Mom and Dad got home from Mom's job interview and put the clean dishes away, shoveled a bit and wiped the sink out. After watching two episodes of 'All in the Family', I spent a majority of my day reading my book about the Tudors; The Tudors: The Complete Story of England's Most Notorious Dynasty by G.J. Meyer. I started it in March but am just now getting around to finishing it, thanks to reading 50 other books last year.
I worked out yesterday afternoon, and it was highly successful. I managed to go 4.7 miles on the elliptical machine in 45 minutes. Not a bad bit of business, I must say, and it left me pretty pleased with myself. I also wound up staying for an hour and 15 minutes lifting weights.
I talked with Bekah on the way home, had a nice dinner and read some more before I watched the documentary 'Miss Representation' on youtube. Before I went to bed, John and I had a Skype date, which is always lovely.
-Current Weight: 183.5
-Goal Weight: 172
--+--
Sunday I worked, Monday I worked. Sunday was an 11-7 day but I ended up staying until almost 8 because of a coworker who left early because he was "sick". And I put it like that only because he is always asking Kaeli to leave early around 4 or 5 when his shift isn't over until 8...because he's bored.
Yeah? You're bored? Unlike the rest of us who enjoy standing around empty stores, twiddling our thumbs as nothing happens. But, whatever. When coworkers aren't there, it means more hours for the rest of us. And as such, staying later on Sunday meant I could leave earlier on Monday.
Ben and I watched episode 4 of season 2 of 'Downton' together on Monday night, and he also got me to watch the first episode of the show 'Sherlock'. I kind of don't see what the big deal is with this show. Maybe it's just me. I did laugh at the line, "I pickpocket him when he's annoying", but otherwise, nope.
Tuesday was a day off. I managed to be really productive in the morning before Mom and Dad got home from Mom's job interview and put the clean dishes away, shoveled a bit and wiped the sink out. After watching two episodes of 'All in the Family', I spent a majority of my day reading my book about the Tudors; The Tudors: The Complete Story of England's Most Notorious Dynasty by G.J. Meyer. I started it in March but am just now getting around to finishing it, thanks to reading 50 other books last year.
I worked out yesterday afternoon, and it was highly successful. I managed to go 4.7 miles on the elliptical machine in 45 minutes. Not a bad bit of business, I must say, and it left me pretty pleased with myself. I also wound up staying for an hour and 15 minutes lifting weights.
I talked with Bekah on the way home, had a nice dinner and read some more before I watched the documentary 'Miss Representation' on youtube. Before I went to bed, John and I had a Skype date, which is always lovely.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
‘Unpopular Opinion’ survey
1. A selection of television programs you do not care for.
How I Met Your Mother, Glee, True Blood, Weeds, The Office, House, Dollhouse, Lost
2. A selection of musical artists you do not care for.
Tom Waits, Justin Bieber, Beyonce, The Foo Fighters, The Killers, My Chemical Romance
3. A selection of celebrities you couldn’t care less about.
Jude Law, Quentin Tarantino, Robert Pattinson, Charlie Sheen, Brad Pitt, Angelina Jolie, any and all of the Kardashians and Kendra Wilkinson
4. A hobby you “don’t get”.
Collecting shot glasses
5. A habit you find disgusting.
Smoking
6. Something in school you really liked doing that everyone else bitched over.
Anything involving history
7. Your favorite household chore.
Vacuuming, laundry
8. Popular video games that make you go “meh”.
Any and all of the Zelda games, Super Mario Brothers, Mario Kart
9. PC or MAC?
PC
10. A sport you don’t like, for whatever reason.
Football
11. A sport you really like, for whatever reason.
Soccer
12. Television programs you love but have gotten shit for liking.
Supernatural
13. Musical artists you love but have gotten shit for liking.
Ke$ha, Three Days Grace, Stabbing Westward, Seether, Fall Out Boy, Fiona Apple, Papa Roach, Muse
14. A hobby you have/find interesting that other people bother you over/make fun of.
I can’t actually think of anything
15. A habit you have that other people bug you over.
Correcting people, not wanting to see earlier versions of things {like the older Star Trek films and movies} because I like the newer ones
16. Something in school you hating doing and it felt like everyone else loved.
Those deductive reasoning math challenges.
17. The household chore that makes you want to shoot your own face off.
Cleaning the cat box
18. A selection of video games that you enjoy that perhaps you really shouldn’t.
Harvest Moon: Save the Homeland {because of how old it is, but I find it super cute}
19. A celebrity crush that maybe even you don’t understand.
Jackie Earle Haley
20. Free rant on whatever grinds your gears at the moment.
-I hate when people walk and don’t pick up their fucking feet and just let their shoes scrape across the floor
-I hate when people chew with their mouths open
-I hate when people don’t wipe off the toilet seat {Ladies; STOP hovering! Just put toilet paper on the toilet seat! It seriously takes like three seconds}
How I Met Your Mother, Glee, True Blood, Weeds, The Office, House, Dollhouse, Lost
2. A selection of musical artists you do not care for.
Tom Waits, Justin Bieber, Beyonce, The Foo Fighters, The Killers, My Chemical Romance
3. A selection of celebrities you couldn’t care less about.
Jude Law, Quentin Tarantino, Robert Pattinson, Charlie Sheen, Brad Pitt, Angelina Jolie, any and all of the Kardashians and Kendra Wilkinson
4. A hobby you “don’t get”.
Collecting shot glasses
5. A habit you find disgusting.
Smoking
6. Something in school you really liked doing that everyone else bitched over.
Anything involving history
7. Your favorite household chore.
Vacuuming, laundry
8. Popular video games that make you go “meh”.
Any and all of the Zelda games, Super Mario Brothers, Mario Kart
9. PC or MAC?
PC
10. A sport you don’t like, for whatever reason.
Football
11. A sport you really like, for whatever reason.
Soccer
12. Television programs you love but have gotten shit for liking.
Supernatural
13. Musical artists you love but have gotten shit for liking.
Ke$ha, Three Days Grace, Stabbing Westward, Seether, Fall Out Boy, Fiona Apple, Papa Roach, Muse
14. A hobby you have/find interesting that other people bother you over/make fun of.
I can’t actually think of anything
15. A habit you have that other people bug you over.
Correcting people, not wanting to see earlier versions of things {like the older Star Trek films and movies} because I like the newer ones
16. Something in school you hating doing and it felt like everyone else loved.
Those deductive reasoning math challenges.
17. The household chore that makes you want to shoot your own face off.
Cleaning the cat box
18. A selection of video games that you enjoy that perhaps you really shouldn’t.
Harvest Moon: Save the Homeland {because of how old it is, but I find it super cute}
19. A celebrity crush that maybe even you don’t understand.
Jackie Earle Haley
20. Free rant on whatever grinds your gears at the moment.
-I hate when people walk and don’t pick up their fucking feet and just let their shoes scrape across the floor
-I hate when people chew with their mouths open
-I hate when people don’t wipe off the toilet seat {Ladies; STOP hovering! Just put toilet paper on the toilet seat! It seriously takes like three seconds}
2 pounds lost
-Starting Weight: 191.5
-Current Weight: 185.5
-Goal Weight: 172
I have cumulatively lost 10 pounds since December. I feel really good about this.
-Current Weight: 185.5
-Goal Weight: 172
I have cumulatively lost 10 pounds since December. I feel really good about this.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
I don't need another map of your head
-Starting Weight: 191.5
-Current Weight: 187.5
-Goal Weight: 172
--+--
On Tuesday, I managed to go to the gym and was on the elliptical for 51 minutes altogether. I did some weight lifting for a few more minutes and then went home because it was beginning to get late. I stopped by CVS on the way home and bought a stronger anti-fungal treatment for my ringworm; Tinactin- or at least its generic version- along with some more band aids and anti-fungal soap. I've been using them every day since Tuesday and already it looks as if the thing is gone...which is a vast improvement over how it looked even a few days ago.
I stayed up late texting John and as such as tired when I got up in the morning. I worked Wednesday and Thursday and everything was pretty much the same as it has been. My late evenings on both nights, however, were punctuated by late night phone calls from John, both of which were amazing and hot.
During all of this, I've read more of John Adams, and yesterday, I finished the first season of 'Downton Abbey'. Bekah's package of food goodies and the book The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan came in the mail as well. I have read 3 books now this year, and so far, only one has not been on my reading list.
I was going to go out to the gym, but the temperature around 5:15 made me change my mind, though I did walk up and back to the mail box and did some backwards pedaling on the crappy exercise bike in the kitchen. I also have eaten very well today, so that's something in my favor; eggs and toast with jam and tea and OJ for breakfast, small piece of steak with pasta and edamame for dinner and some of the goodies in the box Bekah sent.
I talked with Bekah while doing the dishes and laundry before I chatted with John via Skype for a good long while. 35 more days until I can see him in person. I'm looking forward to it much more now...especially since we established that my fetish for a hot teacher is alive and well. What? XD
-Quote of the Day: "breathtaking, adj.
Those mornings when we kiss and surrender for an hour before we say a single word."- The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan
-Current Weight: 187.5
-Goal Weight: 172
--+--
On Tuesday, I managed to go to the gym and was on the elliptical for 51 minutes altogether. I did some weight lifting for a few more minutes and then went home because it was beginning to get late. I stopped by CVS on the way home and bought a stronger anti-fungal treatment for my ringworm; Tinactin- or at least its generic version- along with some more band aids and anti-fungal soap. I've been using them every day since Tuesday and already it looks as if the thing is gone...which is a vast improvement over how it looked even a few days ago.
I stayed up late texting John and as such as tired when I got up in the morning. I worked Wednesday and Thursday and everything was pretty much the same as it has been. My late evenings on both nights, however, were punctuated by late night phone calls from John, both of which were amazing and hot.
During all of this, I've read more of John Adams, and yesterday, I finished the first season of 'Downton Abbey'. Bekah's package of food goodies and the book The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan came in the mail as well. I have read 3 books now this year, and so far, only one has not been on my reading list.
I was going to go out to the gym, but the temperature around 5:15 made me change my mind, though I did walk up and back to the mail box and did some backwards pedaling on the crappy exercise bike in the kitchen. I also have eaten very well today, so that's something in my favor; eggs and toast with jam and tea and OJ for breakfast, small piece of steak with pasta and edamame for dinner and some of the goodies in the box Bekah sent.
I talked with Bekah while doing the dishes and laundry before I chatted with John via Skype for a good long while. 35 more days until I can see him in person. I'm looking forward to it much more now...especially since we established that my fetish for a hot teacher is alive and well. What? XD
-Quote of the Day: "breathtaking, adj.
Those mornings when we kiss and surrender for an hour before we say a single word."- The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan
Friday, January 20, 2012
If you had a million dollars, what's the first thing you'd buy?
I would pay off my debts before buying anything, but I would probably buy a house and a car first thing.
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